Okay so this time I was beset upon by a roving gang of monkeys that staunchly forbid me to update my blog, why? Honestly, I have no idea because I don’t speak monke
y. Grin.
Alright, alright, I have no excuses. After my last post, my motivation went *poof* (again) and I kept saying I would get back to it and kept prioritizing everything else. Or I would have a great idea as I drifted off to sleep, not make a note of it, and fail to recall the idea in the morning, giving myself one more reason to say “I’ll get to it later.”
So here I am posting on motivation and keeping myself accountable (again) and making a sincere effort to not let so much time accumulate between posts.
What helped me this time, supportive friends (again), and reminding myself that if I don’t make time for this, IT WILL NOT HAPPEN. I am the only one that is going to maintain my website, which cannot occur if I never give it time. So I sat down again at my computer gave myself permission to stare at an empty page willing inspiration to appear. I limited other distractions, no web surfing, no emailing, no looking at cat videos. I prioritized this blog, this aspect of my life, and when I did, well these words came out. They may not be the best words ever posted, yet they don’t have to be, for today it is enough that I sat down and did what I had been putting off for way too long.
And with that I am slowly getting motivation and determination back in alignment and am realizing that sometimes “You must do the thing you think you cannot do.”

I have been thinking a lot about permission lately. Mainly how often we deny ourselves permission. Permission to do things that make us happy, permission to not do things, permission to make mistakes, permission to not be perfect and let go. A big way we deny ourselves permission is that dreaded word “should.” So often we are plagued with thoughts of “I should do this, think this, act this way etcetera.” That we never allow ourselves to ask, “What DO I want?” Much less even giving ourselves permission to really follow through with what we actually want.